My time at home is running out.
It seems to me that I am leaving home at exactly the right time. I can stay at home for another couple of days, but that's it. It seems to me that My Life at Home has in fact not been interrupted, but is coming to its timely end. And that's good. A while back I was feeling worried and apprehensive about the whole pending aloneness issue, but at the same time I knew I'd rather go than stay. I just can't bear staying home another year. I have to, I want to, get out. It's time for a change.
I'm not running away from anything, though I am happy to get away from some things.
Friends who say they like you so much and yet practically ignore you when their special friend is around. Friends who make it hard for you to believe what they say, but you have yet to prove they're lying.
Family issues, arguments that come around again and again. Trying to get involved, to help sort it out, is so greatly discouraged its not even worth it. The argument just turns on you.
I don't imagine things will be better at University. I know it won't.
I know it will be hard.
I hope it will be fun.
And I'm looking forward to it.
Thank Elohim.
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