Friday, 4 November 2011

dream future

I have no idea what to do next year.

I don't know if the specifics matter to God. I have a feeling they do.

I don't think I am at all suitable for mission outreaches, but that has to change. I hope they change soon enough.

Anyway, this is what I want: (it doesn't have to happen that way, but it will be nice if it does)

  • I want to have an adventure.
  • I want to experience a really different culture.
  • I want to do something useful and good.
  • I really don't want to be bored or waste my life.

This is what I need:

  • Strong faith.
  • A relationship with Yeshua.
  • Supernatural love for those He loves.
I guess those are not mutually exclusive. Oh, I don't know what to do, what to plan.

Oh, wait, I do know.

Wait. Pray.

2 comments:

  1. Hi Mari! I hope you don't mind me cluttering up your comment feed hahaha. I find myself in a very similar position.

    I'm about to enter into the third year of my psych degree, but very close to going to Bible College isntead. Similar reasons I guess.

    I just figure that if I'm living for God, I shouldn't be doing it part-time; it should be a lifestyle.

    As for FB, if you want a long-term change; get your best friend to change your password and not allow them to tell you. It doesn't solve the problems, but it does a pretty good job :)

    God bless.

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  2. Actually, I like comments... :P But that was more of a brief letter...

    I have to decide pretty soon what to do next year. I don't know how sure I have to be before I make a decision. I have a tendency to be perfectionist and hard on myself, and I have to keep this in mind.

    Young as I am, it is a relief to rely on my parents to give me guidance.

    At the moment, I have to decide between university and some vague unknown connected to missions. I prefer the latter, but I have a fear of staying stagnant and at home, frittering my days away.

    Surprisingly, some spiritually mature believers that I respect (besides my parents) tell me that missionaries are wierd. Well that makes sense, I'm wierd too. :P

    About facebook: I tried to delete it five times or so, and I managed when I made myself accountable to my best friend and another friend. I don't know if it's still possible to delete accounts, I see it's not possible to delete friends anymore. I didn't just dactivate it, so after two weeks it didn't matter that I knew my old password.

    I have a confession to make: I impulsively created a new facebook account the other night. I already regret it, and I think I will delete it again, before I get totally hooked. You know what's the worst for me about facebook? It's so boring, annd yet you keep checking... Aghhh...

    Anyway, letter over, and thanks for visiting... :D

    P.S. I think you're my second commentator.

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