keep your eyes on Me

In the lives of those that follow there is going to come a time When rhythm starts to stumble and singsong swallows rhyme When imaginations crumble, false foundations turn to dust Towers fall to piles of stones and girders into rust Til you let the blood of Jesus wash the rubble from your mind And your eyes again can see the one you almost left behind When theology's in tatters and reason is absurd Still your soul in silence and listen for His word So many turns, so many ways, so many voices cry Standing at the crossroads watching time go flashing by Indecision paralyzes, it's the fear of choosing wrong But waiting is a step itself, and you're wondering too long So again you search the scripture, and again you ask your friends But last of all the One who knows the beginning from the end In the clamor and confusion and the blindness of your choice Still your soul in silence, and listen for His voice.

by Don Francisco

happy again

I am over it. That mopey-ness.

I saw a teaching opportunity in Nepal, which was encouraging.

And overall I'm a little more cheerful than I was when I wrote that last post.


:)

Happiness

I am so happy. Sooo happy.

I can explain, a little. I (rather reluctantly) gave my life to Elohim. I said: "OK, fine, You're in charge. You save me, I can't. You change my life. You make it go the direction you want. I trust You."

Of course, I didn't say it quite like that. But that's what it came down to.

Not that I was a lying, cheating, selfish atheist before that. I was a selfish Christian determined not to lie or cheat or break any commandment. I'm still selfish, I guess. And I'm proud and judgemental. Especially the judgemental part. But I don't worry about this. I also don't worry about doing everything (Godly) exactly right. I don't worry that there are parts in the Bible I don't understand. If I don't know how to do something 'right' and I don't know wether I'm doing something 'right' I don't worry. I don't worry. The End.

I didn't expect my 'life to change'. I just decided that Elohim knows what he's doing, and he won't ruin my life. I didn't expect it to make me so happy. But it did.