I intended this blog, at first, to be for my knitting pictures too. Every now and then I wanted to post some cute or interesting things I had knitted. I wonder if this wouldn't be showing off? People who cannot knit much iften think the stuff I can knit are AMAZING. People who can knit better than me would just think 'oh, that's nice'.
It would be nice to have a record of knits.I WOULD be nice to show off a bit. Especially the new things I learn and knit.
I guess its not AS show offy as posting it on fb.
Wednesday 29 June 2011
Happiness
I am so happy. Sooo happy.
I can explain, a little. I (rather reluctantly) gave my life to Elohim. I said: "OK, fine, You're in charge. You save me, I can't. You change my life. You make it go the direction you want. I trust You."
Of course, I didn't say it quite like that. But that's what it came down to.
Not that I was a lying, cheating, selfish atheist before that. I was a selfish Christian determined not to lie or cheat or break any commandment. I'm still selfish, I guess. And I'm proud and judgemental. Especially the judgemental part. But I don't worry about this. I also don't worry about doing everything (Godly) exactly right. I don't worry that there are parts in the Bible I don't understand. If I don't know how to do something 'right' and I don't know wether I'm doing something 'right' I don't worry. I don't worry. The End.
I didn't expect my 'life to change'. I just decided that Elohim knows what he's doing, and he won't ruin my life. I didn't expect it to make me so happy. But it did.
I can explain, a little. I (rather reluctantly) gave my life to Elohim. I said: "OK, fine, You're in charge. You save me, I can't. You change my life. You make it go the direction you want. I trust You."
Of course, I didn't say it quite like that. But that's what it came down to.
Not that I was a lying, cheating, selfish atheist before that. I was a selfish Christian determined not to lie or cheat or break any commandment. I'm still selfish, I guess. And I'm proud and judgemental. Especially the judgemental part. But I don't worry about this. I also don't worry about doing everything (Godly) exactly right. I don't worry that there are parts in the Bible I don't understand. If I don't know how to do something 'right' and I don't know wether I'm doing something 'right' I don't worry. I don't worry. The End.
I didn't expect my 'life to change'. I just decided that Elohim knows what he's doing, and he won't ruin my life. I didn't expect it to make me so happy. But it did.
Saturday 25 June 2011
Salvation
I have been pondering this subject for a while. Struggling with it, analysing it, and worrying about it. I had many questions about it.
What does 'by grace alone' mean? That we have no part in it? But aren't you supposed to believe correctly? And is believing correctly all there is to it? How does believing correctly change you? And wern't Yeshua's followers required to give up everything? How come we don't have to give up anything?
What are we saved from? From Hell? Why would Elohim want to chuck us in Hell because we don't realise an important truth? Is everyone who doesn't say the Sinner's Prayer going to Hell neccesarily? What about the Jews who have been blinded so the Gentiles can have a chance? (Romans 11:25-26)
That you cannot earn your salvation makes even more sense when you consider that we are saved from sin. Not the punishment for sin (although that too) but sin itself. How can you be saved from sin by not sinning? That doesn't make sense.
Also, we are saved because Yeshua died for us, and rose again. No-one on earth made Him do that. More importantly, he didn't rise from the dead because the disciples' belief was great. No-one on earth, by their virteous lives and great faith in Elohim, made Yeshua rise from the dead. Elohim rose Him so we could have life and life abundantly.
What I learnt recently: Don't try to be perfect. Let Elohim rule your life for you. He'll fix you, you won't.
What does 'by grace alone' mean? That we have no part in it? But aren't you supposed to believe correctly? And is believing correctly all there is to it? How does believing correctly change you? And wern't Yeshua's followers required to give up everything? How come we don't have to give up anything?
What are we saved from? From Hell? Why would Elohim want to chuck us in Hell because we don't realise an important truth? Is everyone who doesn't say the Sinner's Prayer going to Hell neccesarily? What about the Jews who have been blinded so the Gentiles can have a chance? (Romans 11:25-26)
That you cannot earn your salvation makes even more sense when you consider that we are saved from sin. Not the punishment for sin (although that too) but sin itself. How can you be saved from sin by not sinning? That doesn't make sense.
Also, we are saved because Yeshua died for us, and rose again. No-one on earth made Him do that. More importantly, he didn't rise from the dead because the disciples' belief was great. No-one on earth, by their virteous lives and great faith in Elohim, made Yeshua rise from the dead. Elohim rose Him so we could have life and life abundantly.
What I learnt recently: Don't try to be perfect. Let Elohim rule your life for you. He'll fix you, you won't.
Post the First
I don't know how to put this. Which is a bad start to a blog, I guess. :)
The nice thing about a blog is that you can talk without anyone listening, and someone might still hear what you say one day.
This blog isn't an action journal. A 'today I'm going to do this and this and this and yesterday the weather was nice' blog. Basically I just chat to myself and try to sort my thoughts out. So if you think I already talk too much:
a) tell me about it
b) don't read the blog.
The nice thing about a blog is that you can talk without anyone listening, and someone might still hear what you say one day.
This blog isn't an action journal. A 'today I'm going to do this and this and this and yesterday the weather was nice' blog. Basically I just chat to myself and try to sort my thoughts out. So if you think I already talk too much:
a) tell me about it
b) don't read the blog.
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