Feelings are weird. Mine are anyway. I think most people's are.
I feel so happy lately. When I think of going on a year journey one day (see www.gcex.org ) I feel even happier. In fact I suddenly finally understand why people say they feel as if they will burst. You get filled up inside with some immaterial insubstance that rises into your throat and escapes through your ears. I don't know where I get this random stuff from but it fits my mood.
(Moods are even weirder).
Getting back to feelings. I feel so excited. I feel like bouncing around. And nothing happened. Okay, I did have a cup of coffee this morning. Maybe it's the people I'm with. But it can't be the people, cos some of them upset me. Or annoy me. Or both.
Last night they had the cheek to watch a movie about people who freeze on a sky-lift. I was super annoyed. Like super-super-super. The people in the movie were starting to take their fear out on each other and saying heartless things to each other, and I started getting really worked up for the same reason. That was a very effective movie emotion-wise. I wonder what it's intention was?
This morning I was still annoyed with the guy who chose the movie. But I was annoyed with him because of his personality as well. That episode is my main motivation for writing about feelings.
For about a week now I've been trying to understand this silent wonder, wondering about who he is and what he thinks about and then bam, can't stand the sight of him anymore. So I forgave him for his personality. He was the second person on this expedition I had to forgive for his/her personality. It's stupid to get annoyed with people because of who they are.
